Actually, it wasn’t so bad…

Ah, first I just wanna say, Ice Tea as a song seems to
sound best when I’m typing in this journel. Maybe its just
grown on me because I always play it when I do that. Well,
onto my day…

Ok, yesterday Cathy and I were talking and we planed it out
that we’d go to the movies the following day which was
today. We went to see X men 2. Even tho I saw it already, I
really wish we could of seen Matrix two. We actually could
since her older brother and his girlfriend were there with
us. There a cool bunch so I really didn’t mind them much.
I’m more worried about how Cathy felt about it. I think it
went okay. I showed her how I played DDR. She said shes
just good at watching. What I don’t understand is how can a
dancer not do ddr? Hmmm…Well, thats basically my day, and
it was great. Ah, I guess I’ll have to tell Erik about it
tomorrow. He was in Ohio over this break, and I finally
found that out like yesterday. LOL. I didn’t do my
homework, which sorta pisses me off, but ah well, I can do
it in school like old days. Didn’t work on my story much
either, which gets me angry more because it should be done
by now…sigh. Okay, seriously thats all for now, and I’m
out.

3 Day Weekend

Well, here I am again. Nothing much to write besides this 3
day weekend is gonna suck being banned from the mall and
all. ATM I’m really annoyed at my brother and his shitty
pop jap music. I hate it that he doesn’t go to school and
he doesn’t to anything to contribute to this home. My dad
works at his shitty job, I go to school and clean the house
on days I don’t have much homework. He just sits on his
ass. I am so tired of living in this shitty house of poor
people. When couldn’t my parents make something of
themselves and go to college? Grr…Well, I guess I’m gonna
go for a walk and then call Cathy and see whats shes up to.
Maybe we can arrange something on the fly, I dunno. If
nothing comes up I guess I’ll go see Bruce Almighty on my
own, but I guess I’ll go see if Erik wants to come along or
something. Objective of the Day: Do something and work on
story.

Someone likes me?

Yea, you heard right. Someone atleast likes me. I don’t
know if it could lead to anything. It has to…but we haven’t really
seen each other yet. I have seen some pictures of her, but we haven’t
met in person but having someone like
you makes one feel pretty good, which I am. I talked to
Cathy and it went pretty good. She has such a pretty voice. No wonder
shes in chorus and in plays and such. Even though I can’t help but
feel
like I left an idiot and a fool. When I hung up because I couldn’t
think of much to say…I’m so new to this. She prolly hates me now,
and thinks I’m a complete loser…I think all guys go
through this?

Terriable todays bring….Happy Tomorrows?

Well, lets see here…My weekend was majorly good and
majorly bad. Let me start from Friday. Friday I had off
from school. I hitched a ride with my 8th grade teacher’s
class to Medievil Times this cool knight show thing in NJ.
When we started to go, I opened my backpack to find that my
CD player wasn’t there. My gay ass brother must of taken it
out and not put it back, the fucker. I hate that lame ass
slacker. I dealt with not having it. I read some of BR and
ate Pringles and just thought about things. The show was
good, and I got a wooden sword. On the way back, for 5 $, I
was able to borrow Rachel’s CD player. So, atleast I had
music on the way back…Alright, I get home. I find no one
there. Ok, well, I have some fun alone for awhile. Then
some people get home. E was at “school” and shit, and
finally he was going to leave for his shitty camping trip
with his perverted young friends. At 6 my dad comes home
again, I decided I wanted to go to the mall because I
couldn’t remember if Andrew and co. were going to be there
because he called me the night before, but I was to groggy
to remember what the hell he said. So I went up didn’t find
them so yeah. I just hung out on my own. And who do I find?
Andrew, with Cat and her bros and mom. I talked to Andrew
for awhile there, and Cat for awhile too. Cat was filling
out form for jobs and such. When they decided to go, I hung
around with Andrew for awhile. We went up to the mall
arcade, for awhile. (oh yea, the DDR machine was broken.
damn.) Well, Cat, I guess, saw us both in there and decided
to say goodbye to us. (Because she really didn’t before)
She gave Andrew a hand shake, so I expected the same thing.
So I raised my hand, and she just stood there and
said, “Nice rings.” and I’m like “Yeah.” She tells me that
Cathy said hi, and then she gave me a hug and walked away.
Afterwards I hung with Andrew for awhile, and after he left
I just walked around a few times, ate a pizza, and called
for a ride back home. I sign online and I decide to clean
my brother’s shitty room along with my own. I see that
Cathy gets on, so I start to talk to her. We talked for
awhile and then it just sorta comes out that we tell each
other that we like each other. It was ackward, but
interesting. I still can’t believe I could have a
girlfriend. We talked some more, and such. I used Cat as my
advisor, and she suggested to give it more time, so I think
I’ll do that. Thats basically my cool Friday, onto my
hellish Saturday. I’m not even going to go into detail.

I’m banned from the mall for a whole year because of this
idiot I was with who was lighting things on fire. I hope
this guy that you have to call can shorten it, but even
still 3-6 months is still hellishly long, and with the
summer coming up and all. God damn…

A New Day

Whoa, my last entry was like only 3 days ago? It
seems longer. Anyway lets see whats new…Hmm, well I got a
95 on my theo test, and that was pretty cool. I dunno about
how I did on the spanish test today, but I think I did
well.School went by normally. We had a special mass where
the bishop visited because he wasn’t able to visit in the
winter because of the snow, so he came now. He gave us this
friday off because we had one extra snow day left. YAY!! I
went up to the mall today after school, and bought the
Battle Royale manga (comic in english) And it is just
awesome. I recommend for those that read this to pick up
the book, then pick up the comic when your done because the
book has things that I’ve found the comic left out, but its
sorta minor. IMO the comic builds onto the characters
personalities from the book. At the mall after I bought
what I wanted I headed over to the arcade, and like
expected those two damn kids were there on the machine.
Man, I hate those kids, don’t they have homework or a life
or something!? I went home, read Battle Royale, and started
my homework. I talked to cat for awhile. She told me cathy
was doing good (I am happy about that ) Before she got
off, she tole me there was a concert at my old school. So
after eating a hasty dinner I walked up. I was alittle late
and it felt kinda odd walking in the middle of someone
playing. During it I watched Cat’s little brother who is 4,
play around. He is so adorable and funny. He reminds me of
how I might of been at that age. After it was over, I
talked to Cat for alittle bit, then I got home and her I am
writing right now. Well, I think thats all for now. I think
I’m gonna go to bed now.

A Dream I Had Last Night (4)

Last night I had a pretty cool dream. It involved Battle
Royale’s Satomi Noda. The one shy girl with classes that
cracks and kills her friends with an Uzi. In this dream, I
dreamt I was hugging her and kissing her and we talked
about how we didn’t want to play the game or maybe was it
about something else. Then there was another segment where
I was at Andrew’s and we were downloading the Battle Royale
live action TV series, which doesn’t exist, but it was a
dream. Anyway, we (I think Erik and I) found various
episodes and it was awesome. Then during the watching I
looked at a mirror to see me, but I was black then there
was this scary image or something. At that point I had
woken up. It was like 4, on the clock and there was light
out, so I went back to bed seeing the lights would
hopefully keep the monsters away. Heh…heh. Then when I
began to dream again there was a part where Satomi, Yukie,
and another girl from Battle Royale were in an area where
they had to kill each other, and then thats when I woke up
for the day. But having the dream about being Satomi’s
boyfriend and stuff gave me a warm fizzy feeling. I like
dreams that do that.

And just to add it, I forget when I had it but I remember dreaming
once like a few weeks ago about I fell and I left half of my body and
my face went up this one girls skirt, it could of been either Erik’s
younger sister, another girl from my old school or some random one.
But I know it was some young girl. I was shouting, “Ahh! I’m sorry I
didn’t mean to!!” Or something like that and I was waving my hands
around. But then It changed to a scene of me laying near my bed, and
a girl was standing making my bed, and she says something like,”What
wrong Bryan.” or “You woke up.” It was something like that. But once
I rememebered this, It was kinda funny because it was anime like.
Having a dream withen a dream. heh…heh

AISU THII (Iced Tea) Better Day Mix

Bright Day
By Me!!!

I wake up one day and I find myself energized to continue
on in this hellish world.

The cold wasteland was in the past and all I see is the
bright days on ahead.

Heading on towards the future is all one can do, but
remember theres always love to get you through.

Things are fleeting like a dream, but there will always be
people there to be there with you.

Well, today was a good day. Two words: VERY FUN. I went up
to the mall with Andrew (the one that isn’t going out with
cat) Zack and James. We went to the arcade first and I
played a little bit of ddr, then we walked up to CHI CHI’s
were we played pool for awhile. I did well, and it was fun.
Andrew had to go get something for his sister’s graduation
for college so like an idiot I tagged along. Andrew can be
so demanding, its like he wants everything done his way and
you can never really have fun because of him. So I’m always
suckered into doing things with him, AND what else sucks is
I sorta have to let him hit me and punch me even tho I
don’t like it but since he’s weak and fraile and is or was
sickly I can’t punch him back…GRRR!!! We go to this card
store next to spencers and he’s like Bryan don’t leave me..
blah blah blah….jeez andrew your not fricken two. If I
wanna go look around in a store, I will. After that we
walked back to CHI CHI’s but on the way out I met the other
Andrew by the arcade. We talked for awhile till we parted
ways again. What I find stupid is the relationship between
all of them, its so fragile and they all dislike each other
for stupid childish petty reasons. I don’t really care, I
mean there people I hang out with. If they consider me
worthy to be around, I don’t really have a problem with
them. Okay, we get back to CHI CHI’s and we see James and
Zack finishing off a game of pool. I suggest we go to the
mall because I didn’t feel like staying in a stupid place
playing pool while there were tons of cute girls at the
mall. Andrew was againest it because hejust got there but
majority ruled and we all went back to the mall. Andrew
realized he had something that he bought that was broken
and wanted to take it back but didn’t want to go into the
store and say something about it, so he was making up
excuses and asking if james or zack would go in. Next to
the store was spencers and Zack and I were looking at the
cool Matrix posters. We had a tough time remembering who
the black guys name was…till I remembered it was Morphous
or something like that LOL it was a pretty funny situation.
Andrew managed to get James to do it for him, so while
Andrew wasn’t looking, Zack and I got away from his unfun
grasp. That would be the last time I’d see Andrew that day
because later when we met up with James he said Andrew
left, well, not really, but we couldn’t find him. So
anyway, we walked around the mall awhile, and we ended up
back at the arcade. Zack got two girl’s sn’s but he didn’t
care, GRR!! The one blonde was cute, why not me
then… I saw the other andrew and we both played
DDR, till he had to go, and we all had to go because it was
9 30. And thats basically my fun day. Phew thats alot to
write.

Better Days

Well, my day was good. My self worth is starting to raise
again with every passing day, and with that I seem to even
forget I know Erik because I hardly see him or talk to him
that much anymore. Well, I have a big theo test tomorrow
which I’m gonna fail…oh well.

I talked to Cathy again and that was cool. She is such a
cool girl, and I hope maybe we could get together. Sigh,
well, yea, I know this isn’t alot, but I’m tired and
yea…night.

Plum tired

Well, yesterday I forgot to add that I saw Katie OB at the
mall, I didn’t talk to her or anything and I also played
DDR. Also I talked to Cathy last night. Okay, onto today.

I am tired right now. I think that is why I am so pissed at
everyone and stuff. So, I’m just gonna get my homework done
and go to sleep. Also the wing thing with Andrew and Zack
was good, man some of them were spicy. I don’t know how
Zack could do it. Well, I’m out, seeya.

Conforming

Well, nothing really new to report. Just that I think I’m
gonna give up my passion of anime, but I’m going to finish
up the Love Hina manga and get the Battle Royale manga, but
thats all. This summer, I’m taking down my anime posters
and drawings. I just can’t keep up with anime anymore its a
waste of time. I don’t know if its because Erik doesn’t
like it anymore, or if its because it just doesn’t fit in
my way of life anymore. Erik has such a huge impact in
life. Whatever he likes I like, its the only way I can
really understand him. But this doesn’t mean I’m giving up
other things I like. I’m not giving up being a gamer and
what not.

Also, my day was crummy because of Andrew. Well, the other
Andrew called. The one from central. I guess I’m going with
him to eat chicken wings with Zack tomorrow…Well, what do
I have to lose. I said yes. Thats all to report, if theres
anything new. I’ll add it later.