My Summer Fucking Blows (A Blowing Off Steam Rant)

Well, hello everyone. (Dunno who I’m saying hello to but
whatever.) First I want to give my little warning. Yes,
I’ve done previous rants before, but because people I know
read it then get mad at me for them. So I have to delete
them. I put a warning up every time. I’m going to put it in
caps. !!IF YOU ARE A FRIEND OF MINE, READ THIS AT YOUR OWN
RISK BECAUSE IT PROLLY SLANDERS YOU IN SOME WAY!! Anyway,
my summer fucking blows. I thought Erik and I would do
shit, but no we’re doing nothing. I started playing Eq
again, and thats basically all I fucking do now this
summer. Go to bed at 5am, wake up at 2pm play eq till
5am…Man, why does Cathy have to be in fucking Florida?
This fucking blows. Everyone is at Dorney doing shit, but
they leave me here to fucking wallow in a growing
depression. (Why am I even getting sad again?) They didn’t
even ask me if I wanted to go, the bastards. I am so
fucking pissed and lonely. Come on Cathy…Call me
today,please…

AISU THII (Iced Tea) Rainy Day Pop Beat

Bored, bored bored bored bored bored. First I want to say
is don’t take anything from my drunken rabbling entry as
truth. I realized just how special and how much Cathy means
to me. I’ll just copy/paste my realization as I told it to
Erik.

“i think i made the right choice. when i was at the recital
i was thinking about how stupid it was that no boyfriend
would go to a stupid dance thing like this, but then it
wasn’t so bad, and i realized i was going out with a real
sweet girl and that she does mean something to me. i like
it that we both feel the same way about that we’ll atleast
be together for a long time”

Cathy’s a sweet girl and I’m going to enjoy my time with
her. Now if only I could find some better date spots in
this shitty town…Wheres Yoshio or Takumi when you need
them?

Drunken Rabblings

How ironic that my computer kicks me off as I’m writing in
this after another of Andrew’s parties…hmm. Ok, let me
see what I had before. One thing I know about myself is
that I live with a sense of uncertainty and doubt. I could
easily say that the different sides make up my whole, but I
don’t feel this is so easy. I’m not living with integrity.
Its funny how, I say I don’t belive in God and such, but I
choose to live by moral standards. Maybe I’m a moral type
person by birth. In the end, I think I will go back to God
some day. Anyway, Andrew’s party sucked. It was okay at
first but then towards the end it was gay when the couples
started to make out or whatever. They think I’m stupid
because I can’t find myself doing things like that to
Cathy. Seriously I can not. Maybe holding her hand, but I
just can’t see myself kissing someone. I don’t even know if
I like Cathy, I think I’m with her because I just am tired
of being alone or maybe I do like her. Who knows, I don’t
know how I really feel. I’m just living in an uncertain
life…

Tokimeki Memorial: Summer Begins

Well, hello everyone. Yes, I am finally back, and yes I am
still alive. Wow, lets see alot has happened since my last
update. Like getting banned from the mall for burning
stuff. Going out with Cathy, and getting back into magic.
Yea, alots happened. Tomorrow is another of Andrew “Jay
Gatsby” partys so I guess I’ll go. Gotta pick up some
flowers for Cathy tomorrow. She has a recital on Saturday
so I want to give her something nice. Well, so much for an
update. More on things tomorrow.