My life is so going down the drain. I stay up all night go to school fucking tired all day. Don’t do my homework or study much anymore. I don’t even know if I can draw much anymore. I hate going to the school I go to because I can’t be who I am. Fucking cock suckers, now I look like a dick head with this shorter hair. Yay! I have detention tomorrow because of my old long hair. Fucking school. Don’t even have a good art program. I hate it all.

I don’t think it’ll work out between Maria and I. shes just too full of life for me. I couldn’t handle it. I’ll just have to tell her it wouldn’t work out.

I think starting from today I’m going to be a loner again and cut myself off from everyone. I hate them all anyway.

I was bored and drew this drawing. I know its probably bad, but I drew it on the computer. I’ll probably put it on my site, I guess…Ok, maybe not. Gay ass xanga can’t hold drawings like this. Oh well. I found this pretty cool pic of Asahi I guess from a CP fighter.

I hate school. School fucking blows so much. I go to a gay catholic school a place where someone cannot be an individual. I got written up today for long hair which isn’t really that long. It says in the god damn handbook that it can’t be below the collar. Fucking teachers. Then my cock sucker Theo teacher assigns more questions on some saint along with homework questions due tomorrow. Yay! Then I have a Spanish 3 exam Thursday. Fuck fuck fuck. I hate god damn school! I just want to draw.

I stole this from Cat’s.

What does your name mean?: Well, Bryan means high or hill. How old are you?: 16
How old are you mentally?: Probably 10-13ish maybe lower. I loved the past.
Describe yourself in five words: Angry, confused, dreamer, quiet
What are your worst qualities?: Too judging of everyone’s trust

Best?: When I trust you it won’t fail.

How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?: About an hour and a half.
Do you dream at night?: Yea
Do you remember your dreams?: Sometimes
Describe one: They’re kind of…personal.
What time do you go to sleep usually (weekdays)?: 10-11ish
Weekends?: It really depends. Sometimes I stay up all night sometimes I go to bed earlier.

What time do you wake up usually (weekdays)?: 6-6:30

Weekends?: Depends.
Do you find waking late nice or annoying?: Sometimes I hate it sometimes I don’t
Do you sleep with one pillow or two?: one

SCHOOL
Do you like school: Not much anymore
Why/why why not: School doesn’t provide the path I wish to go down. Art.
What is your favorite subject?: English because it helps when writing a comic.
Most hated?: Everything else.
Ever had a crush on a teacher?: Strangely yeah…
Are you a Math/Science person or a English/Drama person?: English/Art .

Do you have heaps of friends?: Who needs heaps of friends?
Do you have more guy friends or girl friends?: guys
Do you ever get annoyed at any friend?: Of course.
Have you ever lied to a friend?: Yeah, but only to the ones at school.

FAMILY
Do you like your parents?: Not really. Ever run away from home?: Never. As much as I hate it. Running is for the weak.
Do you have any brothers/sisters?: Yea
Do they annoy you?: Sometimes.
Do you feel your parents spoil you?: Maybe
Do you get along with any of your family?: Not really.
Do you have big family get togethers?: Nope. I hardly know my family.

RELATIONSHIPS
Do you have a boy/girl friend?: Not anymore.
If so are you in love with them?: Was…I guess.
Do you have a crush?: Yea
If so are you in love?: What is love? I’d rather not say. I hate that word so much.
Do they know you like them?: Yea
Is it serious or playful?: I don’t know, I didn’t get to that level yet.
How long have you liked them?: Since freshmen year.
Have you ever had unrequited love?: Nope, I’m glad I said how I felt despite the rejection.
Know what it is?: Know what is?

SEX
Ever had sex?: No
Do you believe in sex before marrige?: No

Believe in casual sex?: Maybe
When/how do you plan to lose your virginity?: I don’t know. I don’t think about stuff like this.
RELIGION
Do you believe in God?: No
Jesus?: Yes.
The Devil?: No
Heaven?: No
Hell?: No
If you died tomorrow, what do you think would happen?: Life would continue.
Do you go to church?: Nope
Does death scare you?: Not in general. Maybe if it were gruesome yea.

MORALS
Have you ever been drunk?: Nope
Taken drugs of any kind?: Nope
Stolen anything?: Nope
Shoplifted?: Nope
Tried to commit suicide?: I say I’ve tried, but I haven’t.
Lied to a boy/girl friend?: Probably
Are you more innocent or guilty?: I’m in the middle, I guess.
Would you date a druggie?: Nope
Are you racist?: Maybe, I say what I say to make people laugh. I think deep down I’m not.
Have you been a hypocrite in the past?: Yeah, I always am.
Do you have a open or closed mind?: Closed

MEDIA
Do you watch loads of tv?: Nope

How many times have you been to a movie in the past 5 months?: A couple times I think.
Do you listen to the radio often?: Nope
Do you read the newspaper?: I used to until my parents cancelled our subscription.
Do you read magazines?: Yes.
Are you a couch potato?: Nope
Do you use the internet too much?: Yep

What’s your favorite style of music?: Metal/Piano/ J-Pop and J-Rock/Anime-Game OSTs
Do you sing?: Only in my room alone.

What’s your favorite band?: Nightwish/I’ve KOTOKO/Cradle of Filth/Porno Graffiti/Do As Infinity/T M Revolution
Why?: Because I like them?
Have you met them before?: Nope
Name 3 cds you’ve bought in the past year?: Tokimemo vol 2 midi collection, Sakura Taisen 3 OST and Tokimemo 2 vol 2 OST
Why did you buy them?: So I could put the music to my computer and just have it because I like the games.

SPORTS
What’s your favorite sport?: I don’t have one.
Do you have a favorite team?: Nope

PERSONALITY
Are you funny or serious?: Depends on your friendship level
Creative or not?: I’m very creative
Logical thinker or lateral thinker?: Logical?
Lazy or active?: Depends on how I feel

LOOKS
Are you happy with the way you look?: I guess so
What would you change?: …
Do you wear makeup?: Nope, I’m a guy.
Do you have a large wardrobe?: Nope
Clean dirty or whatever?: Meh

MONEY
Do you have a job?: Nope
Saver or a spender?: Spender.
Had moeny stolen from you?: Nope

FRIENDS AGAIN
Best friend?: Erik

Enemy?: Those that hate me for who I am
Would you call yourself a good friend?: I try

THE END
Why did you do this?: Bored
What are you going to do now?: Play Sakura Taisen 3

I hate how friends from my school stick around me. Mostly Costa. I hate how he just sticks around me and doesn’t let me have peace to myself. I truthfully would probably 10 times happier at school if I had no friends. Friends at school are just tedious. I’m an independant person and I find fun in my own things. I don’t really need people to have fun.

I walked up to borders yeterday and man it was fucking cold outside. I wish I had a scarf and some gloves, but mostly gloves because if my hands are cold than I get cold. My hands are pretty sensitive I guess. When I got to borders I just felt so dizzy and cold. I couldn’t draw so I just called home and got a ride back. Pissed about the wasted effort. I only have a week to get this next comic done and I only have 2 out of 24 pages done. Sigh…

Theres this girl I like from my school since freshmen year. Her name’s Maria. I told her that I liked her when I was still going out with my evil ex girlfriend. I said that if I never met Cathy (my ex) that I would go out with her. Well, we’ve been not together for awhile now. I finally decided it was time to try. So I called Maria up and arranged a time we could go to the movies. Jeez shes so different then Cathy on the phone. The randomness. The actually conversation. I like it. I hated how Cathy would be so silent on the phone. There is never a dull moment with Maria. I don’t know if this arrangement is a date or not. I guess it is? I dunno. I’m just glad to get out with her. I hope it works out. I’m starting to feel the way I did with Cat. The beating heart, the importance of there being. But it feels different too. I don’t know how to really say it. I just want to talk to her, and it just makes me feel happy to see her in class or whenever I can. But than I get sad when she doesn’t pay attention to me and she pays attention to the other guys she talks to. I don’t…no I hate it. I know this feeling too much. Ever since I was young watching the other girl I cared about alot at one time talk to other guys never noticing me. Thats how I feel now. I hope things to be different this time.

I’m getting drawing lesson in the summer at the Baum school. Yay! Finally some real lessons. I’ve gotten pretty good, I guess without any, but I could really use some basic/advanced classes. Now is that time. School is so annoying because when I could be drawing I have to learn about God and such crap like that. The only other real class I like is English because that can help me write a script for my comic. Speaking about God, I hate my Theology teacher so fucking much. I want her to die or atleast go to prison or something. I hate her because shes such a bitch. With her large projects and bullshit about God and the like. I hate religion in general its so controlling.

Ja-

Well, I’m pretty bored right now and school blows. I feel like sorting on my doujinshi story out here. Maybe you’ll like it?

The Main plot is about this guy named Bryan Pany who one day wakes up to find a girl in bed with him. She tells him that she is his girlfriend from the future thus the title Future Girlfriend. Why she is there she doesn’t say. Thats the jist of the main plot which doesn’t really come into play right now. The first 4 volumes which I’ve finished basically set up who the characters are. They’re more or less misc. stuff.

Volume 5 which I’m going to start working on once I finish inking volume 4 up is going to be about some side things like about Mio and Heather. Bryan is going to be on what happened to Zack. The 4 Generals are going to find residance on Earth. Then volume 6 kicks the story in full gear because the first story arc begins when Mio’s fiance shows up.

Let me explain some of the characters. (Some will be more detailed then others)

Bryan Pany is the hero of the story. He is an all around good guy that’s trying to get into college. Until recently he was living alone until a girl saying she was his girlfriend from the future appears. Bryan works at the Utopia pub with his boss, Gina Corin. Bryan is friends with Zack Zell and Erik Krimp. Bryan used to like the Dragon Breath series alot but stopped for some reason.

Marisa Casdon is the “heroine” so to speak. She mysterious appeared in Bryan’s bed one morning. Marisa is airheaded, but also very smart. Its hard to tell if shes really that way or just acting…hmm…

Mio Ichimachi is a girl from Japan. She failed her exams to get into a college, and is trying to get into one again. She is a big fan of the hit fantasy series Dragon Breath by Frank F. Zar. Mio is shy and likes anime and reading alot. She knows Bryan and has a big crush on him. This was because of an event that happened in the past…Mio also lives with the Smith’s which she hates because she is treated badly there. (Shes my fav girl)

Heather Smith is the rich model of Dorway Fashions. She is the daughter of Mr. and Mrs. Smith. Heather is snobby, and likes to get her way.

Gina Corin is Bryan’s boss at the Utopia pub. She is stong as an ox. Her heart is in the right place though. Always looking out for Bryan despite she teases him.

Rika Glen (has yet to appear) is Bryan’s old girlfriend who moves back to Reedsburg in the spring. It was she who got Bryan into Dragon Breath and why he liked the series so much in the past. Rika is a fangirl who likes to play RPGs, watch anime, and read fantasy. She enjoys to cosplay and even will get the cast to go to a kon.

Erik Krimp is one of Bryan’s friends. He is of higher class, but despite this hangs around Bryan. Erik is considered the idol of the cram school they go to. Erik has a crush on Marisa and immediatly tells her this.

Zack Zell is the other friend of Bryan. He likes to work out and knows karate. Zack likes to test his limits. Sometimes due to his heated personality gets him into too much trouble. He also has a crush on Marisa but has yet to tell her.

Lord Damien is a mysterious character that seems to be searching for someone know as the one. He is seen being in a spaceship floating in space above Earth. He has four generals that are with him and they are.

Ceal Richter the cool, badass adverage guy. Ceal can sometimes lose his temper but knows when to act. Ceal worries about is aging and if he’s going to be single his whole life. He considers settling down once he has acomplished his “task”

Alishia Aura was on the planet Nadia and was saved by Lord Damien. Only believes in serving him and his goal with her son, Kenji.

Fallena Fhalice is a cheery girl that has a crush on Ceal.

Zenos a mysterious man wearing a chained mask

Thats basically the jist of the cast. Any questions leave a comment.

Ja-