Well, today sucked. I went for a walk and it was freezing outside. I should probably invest in some gloves or only swing when it is warmer out.
I went over to Lauer’s with Costa like I had said yesterday. It sucked. We got no work done as expected. Course I’m not doing much in the project anyway. So it was a waste of time for me. Also when we got there it was expected to see Zack there but so was Beth. Zack is alright but Beth… Eh
I don’t like Beth much. I’ll leave it at that. She acts indecent and I can’t stand indecent girls. Uguu~!
They expected me to sit there and watch a movie and eat pizza. Ha! I made sure to get out of there. Course I ate some pizza. Hah.
I got home pretty bummed out but now I found out my ram is probably going to come tomorrow so that’s cool. Hopefully EQ2 will run after now…
Gosh, my entries have turned so shallow much like how I’ve become.
-Ja na
HUUGE QUIZ*~
001. What is your name? Bryan
002. Spell your name backwards: Nayrb
003. Date of birth: 4-14-87
004. Male or female? Male
005. Astrological sign: Aries
006. Nicknames: Fatty, Retard, Gay, Koji Oe, Magus, Maou, etc
007. Occupation? Student
008. Height: 5′9″ or something like that
random thing- lets pretend we live on the moon! Ok…
009. Weight: 160-170
010. Hair color: dark brown/black
011. Eye color: brown
012. Where were you born? I have no idea
013. Where do you reside now? Allentown
014. Age: 17
015. Screen names: MaouZeal
016. E-mail addy: I can’t give that out
017. What does your screen name stand for? Well, Maou is Magus’s Japanese name from Chrono Trigger and Zeal is his last name when he’s Janus leaving in his real time. I just combined the two.
018. xanga……Um, you’re right here.
019. What does your Blurty name stand for? Name of a story title I thought of.
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? Um, 17?
022. Piercings? None
023. Tattoo’s? None
024. Shoe size: I have no idea
025. Righty or lefty? righty
026. Wearing: …
027. Hearing: Bgm to Skies of Arcadia
028. excited.. huh?
029. Eating/drinking: No eating today
~Girls/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~
061. Have you ever been in love? I thought I was
062. How many people have you told “I love you”? Some have…
063. How many people have you been in love with? No one
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? No
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? Maybe?
116. Are your parents divorced? yes
117. Do you have step parents? yes
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? Not that I know of…
119. If so for what? Dunno
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country? Don’t know. Don’t care.
~Music Stuff~
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? I have a few.
122. What’s the most embarrasing cd you own? None. I like all the CDs I buy
123. What’s the best cd you own? All of them?
124. What song do you absolutely hate? Basically anything my brother listens to and Gackt
125. Do you sing in the shower? Of course
126. What song reminds you of that special someone? “Catch you, Catch me†um and “That Mysterious Girl†among others…
~Okay, I Name An Artist And You Give A Lyric From Any One Of Their Songs!~
127. Pink: Suxors
128. Aerosmith: Suxors
129. Madonna: Suxors
130. Korn: Suxors
131. Backstreet Boys: Suxors
132. The Beatles: Can’t buy me love
133. Sublime: Suxors
134. J.Lo: Suxors
135. *Nsync: Suxors
136. Limp Bizkit: Suxors
137. Britney Spears: Suxors
138. Creed: Stupid Christian rock band. Suxors
139. Enrique Iglesias: Suxors
140. Good Charlotte: Gags to death
141. Christina Aguilera: Suxors
142. Eminem: Suxors
143. New Found Glory: Suxors
144. Kelly Clarkston: Suxors
145. Kelly Osbourne: Suxors
146. Mandy Moore: Suxors
147. Eve: Suxors
148. Aaliyah: Stupid bitch that practically killed herself. HAHA
149. Nelly: Suxors
150. Alicia Keys: Suxors
151. Incubus: Suxors
Blind Guardian: NOW. YOU. ALL KNOW. THE BARDS AND THERE SONGS! \_/
Children of Bodom: Midnight! Bodom after Midnight!
Hammerfall: Riders of the storm! One with the wind defenders of creation!
Iron Maiden: Run! Fight! To breathe! It’s tough. Now you see me now you don’t. Break the walls I’m coming out!
Nightwish: They came for him one winters night. Arrested he was bond. They said there was a robbery. His pistol they had found.
~Favorites~
152. Color: Black
153. Food: mostly everything
154. Song: too many to say just one
155. Show: School Rumble for now
156. school subject: Theology and english
157. Band/singer: Blind Guardian
158. Animal: wolf
159. Outfit: My trenchcoat
160. Radio station: Um…whatever mulenburg’s station is
161. Movie: I don’t really see movies
162. Pair of shoes: My boots
163. Cartoon: south park is the only real cartoon I watch
164. Actor: N/A
165. Actress: N/A
166. Potato chip: Don’t eat
167. Drink: milk, water mostly
168. Alcholic drink: None. I am alkeyhol free
169. Holiday: They’re all the same to me
170. Perfume/cologne: Don’t wear
171. Pizza topping: extra cheese/mushrooms
172. Jello flavor: don’t eat
173. Lunch meat: turkey or ham
174. Board game: risk and chess
175. Video game: Suikoden series, Lunar series, Final Fantasy series, Tokimeki Memorial 2, Sakura Taisen series, Skies of Arcadia, Chrono Trigger
176. Website: www.angelfire.com/hero/taishisendai
177. Book: Les Miserables, Musashi, Lolita, Little Women, Battle Royale
178. Computer game: Eq2, WHICH I CAN’T PLAY YET!
179. Number: whatever the last number is
180. Cereal: honey nut cheerios
181. Comedian: whoever is funny really
182. Dessert: vanilla or strawberry.
183. Disney character: Alice is pretty cute …what stop staring at me >_>
184. Clothing store: Thrift stores own joo
185. Passtime: xanga, walking, reading, playing video games, watching anime, being a bum
186. Teacher: Mr. Penny, Ms. Galie.
187. Childhood toy: Ninja Turtles and the Nintendo
188. Carnival game/ride: Eh, I dunno
189. Candy bar: snickers
190. Magazine: Playboy. Nah, I’m goshing ya. I don’t read many magazines. I guess new type if I can find it opened.
191. Salad dressing: Eye talian
192. Thing to do on the weekend: sleep and oh…sleep some more!
193. Hot drink: coffee
194. Season: spring and fall
195. Sport to watch: I don’t like to watch sports
196. Person to talk to online: Sarah, Angela,
~Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits~
197. What color are your sheets? Don’t use sheets
198. What color are your bedroom walls?brown…
199. Do you have posters on your wall? yeah
200. If so of what? Let’s see…one of Sakura and Li, Onegai teacher cast, Love hina cast, Naru and Shinobu together on a bed, a poster of shinobu, one of Li Koran, one of the cast of Sakura Taisen 2. I think I might get some Full Metal Alchemist ones for Christmas. I dunno.
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom? yep
202. How many pillows are on your bed? 1 that’s all I need. I’m a guy after all
203. What do you normally sleep in? pajamas
204. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: t shirt and pajama pants
205. What size bed do you have? A single bed. Just like how I am…single
206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed? Wha?
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? no
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? No, how could anyone get to sleep with noise like that
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: I can’t remember
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? No
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? Probably no one other then me unless…it was a pretty girl I’d give it a try.
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? I don’t think so
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? Thank god no
214. Do you snore? Probably not
215. How about drool? Maybe?
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? Yeah but I don’t use it. Typical.
217. What color is the carpet in your room? red
218. What’s under your bed? Stuff. Not porn. That’s on my computer you fool
~This or that~
219. beach/mountains: mountains. Preferable in a cave alone
220. Donuts/bagels: donuts. mwa
221. Day/night: day
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: Wha?
223. Heaven/hell: heaven
224. Make love/have sex: not until after marriage
225. Coffee/tea: coffee
228. Britney/Christina: huh? They’re both whores
229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: swiss
230. Real World/Road Rules: they’re both gay shows
231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: both gay. Need to be shot
232. Silver/gold: platinum
233. Nike/Adidas: neither. They’re gay
234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: neither they’re gay
235. Sweet/sour: sweet
236. Punk/emo: neither they’re both very gay and if you like any of them you’re gay just like the gay music you listen to. Whoa that’s a lot of gay. I must be tired.
237. Hot/cold: hot
238. Winter/summer: summer
239. Spring/fall: spring
240. Operas/plays: opera
241. Read/watch tv: read
242. Cd’s/tapes: cds
243. Dvd’s/vhs: dvds
244. Old/new: old
245. Shorts/skirts: skirts on girls, but nothing sluty. Something cute and nice. I preferred a dress on a girl if anything.
ink/red: pink
247. Colored pictures/black and white photos: colored
248. meat/vegetables: meat. I will eat 5 animals that every vegetarian does not eat
249. Mexican food/chinese food: they’re both decently good
250. Commercials/infomercials: neither.
251. Scary movies/comedies: comedies
252. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: Hmm. I like one pieces on girls. They’re just well…more cuter!
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: neither. boots
254. Dogs/cats: neither. ferrets
255. Unicorns/fairies: fairies. You can atleast undress them. Dot dot dot
256. Water/land: land
257. Sugar/spice: sugar
258. Black/white: black
259. ribbons/bows: ribbons! I want to buy a ribbon for my pony tail so much, but I have no idea where to find one.
260. Chicken/beef: chicken
261. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: colored
262. Cars/trucks: cars
263. Austin Powers/James Bond: james bond
264. Popcorn/pretzels: popcorn
265. Hip/hop: wha?
266. Passionate kiss/peck: passionate kiss …after marriage
267. WWE wrestling/real wrestling: I guess which ever is more real
268. Back rub/foot massage: hmm
269. Picture frames/photo albums: I don’t really collect photos of people. I’m not a camera person
270. Pens/pencils: pencils
~What Is Your Opinion Of The Following~
271. Eminem: Needs to die
272. Virgins: save it for after marriage
273. God: He is the MAN
274. The Osbournes: Never really watched the show but Ozzy is cool.
275. Reality TV: needs to go away
276. J.Lo: needs to die
277. Religion: Christianity the one TRUE church. Awesomeness
278. Emo music: needs to go away along with it’s followers
279. Valentine’s Day: stupid hallmark holiday
280. Christina Aguilera’s comeback: whore, needs to now go away again.
281. Homosexuals: I have nothing against them
282. Abortion: evil
283. Inter-racial relationships: nothing wrong with it. We’re all people. Skin color is irrelevant
284. Murder: is bad
285. Death: sad but it needs to happen
286. Obesity: sad anyone can eat that much.
287. Pre-marital sex: not good wait till after marriage joo fools
288. Terrorism: why must people do this?
289. Pornography: ::cough::
290. Fortune tellers: so very fake
291. Threesomes: Sex is between a man and a woman. That is all. TWO PEOPLE. Can you count?
292. Prostitution: horrible
293. Politics: don’t know much
294. Country music: eh, I don’t like it
295. George W. Bush: better then kerry
296. Cloning: should be stopped
297. Britney’s boobs: meh?
298. Gas prices in America: can’t complain. I don’t drive anyway
~Name Game~
What Do You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?.
299. Jack: burner
300. Tiffany: grant
301. Ben: stemrick
302. Maria: busa
304. Nicole: my cousin
305. Amy: cute name
306. Adam: and eve
307. Richard: nixon
308. Justin: ?
309. Arnold: hey!
310. Tom: my uncle
311. Melissa: cool song by porno graffiti
312. Charlotte: cute name
313. Harold: hark the angel sing
314. John: the baptist
315. Joel: billy
316. Vanessa: ?
317. Michelle: ?
318. Kevin: ?
319. Brent: ?
320. Jake: martin
321. Billy: joel
322. Sarah: an interesting person
323. Natalie: ?
324. Christi: ?
325. Nick: ?
326. Linda: ?
327. Taylor: ?)
328. Jordan: ?
329. Jamie: ?
330. Adrian: ?
~Have You Ever….~
331. Mooned anyone? Yes, my brother
332. Been on a diet? no
333. Been to a foreign country? never
334. Broken a bone? Not yet…
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? no
336. Swear at a teacher? no
337. Talked to a lj member via e-mails or instant messages? ?
338. Got in a fight? sure
339. Dated a teacher? Maybe if they were nice looking
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? no
341. Thought about killing your enemy? sure
342. Gone skinny dipping? no
343. Met another Blurty member in the flesh? no
344. Told a little white lie? sure
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell? yeah
346. Stolen anything? sure
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? Ah…can’t say I have
348. Been on TV? maybe
349. Been on the radio? no
350. Been in a mosh pit? Yeah, it sucks
351. Been to a concert? yeah
352. Dated one of your best friends? no
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? yes
354. Decieved somebody close to you? yes
355. Broken the law? Yeah.
356. Been to a rodeo? no
357. Been on a talk show? no
358. Been on a game show? no
359. Been on an airplane? no
360. Got to ride on a firetruck? yeah
361. Came close to dying? Yeah a bunch of times
362. Cheated on a bf/gf? Nope, but kinda
363. Gave someone a piggy back ride? yup
364. Terrorized a babysitter? no
365. Made a mud pie? yeah
366. Had a dream that our falling off a cliff? yeah
367. Snuck out of the house at night? no
368. Been so drunk you don’t remember your name? no
369. Had an eating disorder? no
370. Felt like you didn’t belong? all the time
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel? yeah
372. Smoked? no
373. Done drugs? no
374. Been arrested? Yeah for arson
375. Had your tonsils removed? no
376. Gone to camp? yeah
377. Won a bet? No I never win bets
378. Written a love letter? I’ve tried, but I quickly just throw them away
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? …
380. Written a love poem? …
381. Kissed in the rain? …
382. Slow danced with someone you love? no
383. Participated in cyber sex? ::cough::
384. Faked an orgasm? Um…
385. Stolen a kiss? no
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? yes
387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf? Well…long story
388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love? I wish
389. Gotten a speeding ticket? No, I can’t drive
390. Done jail time? no
391. Had to wear a uniform to work? no
392. Won a trophy? no
393. Thrown up in public? no
394. Bowled a perfect game? no
395. Failed/got held back? Nah, I’ve made it thru some how
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school? nah
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds? yeah
398. Taken ballet lessons? I like girls who take ballet…but I’d personally never do it
399. Attempted suicide? No, but I’ve thought about it in the past
400. Cut yourself? Shaving yes
~Childhood Stuff~
401. Did you play with Barbies? Me? Well, back when I would play around with the girls of my neighborhood I guess I would…
402. Did you own Treasure Trolls? no
403. Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210? no
404. Did you play Simon? Yes..
405. Did you watch Fraggle Rock? Yes, I hated it
406. Did you wet the bed? yes
407. Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed? Of course
408. Did you wear the underwear with the days of the week on them? What the hell are you babblin about foo?
409. Were you shy? I always am
410. Were you spoiled? probably
411. Were you abused? Disciplined I was
412. Did you go to the circus? nope
413. Did you go to the zoo? no
414. Were you in a car accident? no
415. Did you build snowmen? yes
416. Did you cry when you scraped your knee? No way
417. Were your older cousins mean to you? no
418. Did you think slinkies were cool? Eh, they were ok
419. Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer? Of course they did
420. Were you afraid of the dark? yes
421. Did you have slumber parties? Yeah I guess that’s what they’re called.
422. Did you have New Kids On The Block sheets, curtains, sleeping bags, dolls and pajamas? No, I’m a guy
423. Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany? ?
424. Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy? Yes, sadly enough
~Randomness~
425. Do you believe in aliens? yes
426. Name three things that are next to your computer: file cabinet, lamp, speakers
427. Do you have any hidden talents? If it were hidden wouldn’t I not know about it? So, I guess yes then.
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? I hate MTV
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be? Romantic comedy
430. What would your movie star name be? In the movie? Probably Bryan Pany
431. Do you play any sports? no
432. What’s the scariest movie you’ve ever seen? The ring was pretty suspenseful
433. What is the best movie you’ve seen in the theater or rented recently? N/A
434. What is the dumbest movie you’ve ever seen? I’ve seen a lot of stupid movies
435. Do you drive? nope
436. What is your dream car? To have one I can drive?
437. Do you think your good looking? I don’t know
438. Do others think you are good looking? I have no idea
439. Would you ever sky dive? no
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot? no
441. How many rooms do you have in your house? No idea
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters? no
443. Do you believe in God? yes
444. Do you believe in Satan? yes
445. Do you believe there is a heaven? yes
446. Do you believe there is a hell? yes
447. Do you own a pooltable? no
448. Do you have a pool? no
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? no
450. Do you like chocolate? yes
451. Who/what is on your 2003 calendar? i dont have one
452. How many U.S. states have you been to? pa, nj, ny
453. Ever wished on a shooting star? no
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? …
455. Do you carry any weapons on you? Yes, my katana
456. What is your weakness? Cuteness
457. Name something you can’t get enough of: H, video games, and anime.
458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: shy, deeper then most, tolerant
459. How many kids do you want to have? As many as I can
460. Future daughters names: hmm, I don’t know
461. Future sons names: I don’t know
462. What is your ideal way to die? In my sleep peacefully after observing my life and seeing how worthwhile it was. That’s if I achive my goals etc
463. How do you release stress? Sleeping, playing games, wallowing in my stress
464. Are you a trendy person? no
465. Are you an artisitic person? yeah
466. Are you a realistic person? yeah
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off? Yeah, then I can’t take them off
468. Are you a strong person? no
469. Are you a strong willed person? no
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you? Don’t know
471. Who is the last person to IM you? sarah
472. Do you hate chain e-mails? yes
473. Are you a deep sleeper? yes
474. Are you a good story teller? yeah
475. What do you believe is your best quality? trust
476. What is your greatest accomplishment? Living life this long
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense? candles
478. Do you do yoga? no
479. Do you have your own credit card? nope
480. Let’s say you win the lotto: okay
481. Do you have a check book? no
482. Do you like your driver? sure
483. Do you tan easily? nah
484. What color is your hair naturally? Dark brown
485. How many fillings do you have? dunno
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit? dunno
487. Worst feeling in the world? Being alone, being unloved, etc
488. Best feeling in the world? Being in true love with the person God made for you
489. Is the glass half empty or half full? I like to drink everything in my glass
490. Last thing you downloaded? songs
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life? Hell no. I type out the full words. Fuck you people at your ebonics and shorthand.
492. What do you think people think of you? Don’t know. Don’t care.
493. Are you a likeable person? I think so
494. Do you need therapy? probably
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance? no
496. What the best way to be proposed to? romantically
498. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP? Haha maybe
499. When are you moving? We are always in movement
500. What’s your favorite phrase? meh
Meh, just something I’ve been working on in my time off being sick. I think I might start a comic version. Camus is definitely an interesting character. I don’t think I ever had an Atheist character yet. I know I’m not the best at writting. I just like getting my ideas on paper because it satisfys my imagination.
The Seven Keys
By Frank F. Zar
– Prologue -
Long ago in the time of many warm days there was a Goddess by the name of Mary. Mary was a loving immortal who gave much to the people. They came from far away lands to the Holy Shrine of the Trinity. Seeking cures, strength, and courage. Strange occurrences began to happen among the people who had received blessings from Mary. These people began to be filled with malice. It soon became apparent that this Goddess was not a Goddess at all but a demon. The people banded together using the skills that naturally were known in there hearts. Creating seven keys they locked away this demon in her own temple, but Mary was the one who had the last laugh. She cursed the land and snow fell for years and years across the land never to stop…
“No matter how many times a read this story it just seems like a fairy tale.†Exclaimed a young man getting from his seat.
He was dressed in a white buttoned down shirt with a blue tie, black pants and leather shoes. He had straight long black hair. He was tall.
The young man felt embarrassed for talking out loud out of the blue, and quickly sad back down in his seat. His fellow students looked at him with a strange expression only to shortly go back to there studies.
The professor by the blackboard was a stern old man with a beard and spectacles on his wrinkled nose. His was adorned in a green robe.
“Mr. Myrion!†The professor shouted, “What is your sudden outburst about this time, hmm?â€
The student got from his seat and quickly addressed his teacher. “Well sir. I was reading this article in this magazine here.â€
The elderly man slowly walked up to him grabbing the magazine. “Let me see what your problem is this time, hmm?â€
The professor looked through the magazine seeing the usual ads of young girls and things that people say will make your life better. He finally got to the main article that read: The Goddess Mary – Fact or Fiction Goddess or Demonic?
The professor then began to form a mean expression on his wrinkled face. “What are you doing reading this trash!†He exclaimed waving the magazine in the air, “The Goddess Mary a demon?†He laughed with his back to the Myrion. “Don’t you pay attention to my lectures at all boy? It’s trash like this that people become Atheists. It was because of our doubt that this world is torn into an eternal blizzard!â€
The school bell then rang, and the students quickly filed out of the room. The one called Myrion quickly snuck out of the room to avoid further ranting from his teacher.
“Man, I was just reading it for pleasure. He doesn’t have to go all ballistic about it.†He thought as he was walking down the hall.
The hall had papers scattered about on the floor. Students were talking to each other by their lockers. Others dressed very warmly as they left the school. Myrion got to his locker that was on the third floor of the school. Just when he was about to open it a cheerful girl’s voice called from behind him.
“That was some outburst Camus.†The voice said.
“Yeah, well I could help it Sara.†Camus replied, “All this talk about some Goddess. It’s gay I tell you. There is no such thing as a Goddess.†Camus continued to have his back towards Sara as he rummaged through his locker for stuff.
“Well…I really think you should reconsider…†She said quietly.
“Reconsider? Reconsider what?†He then turned towards Sara to find here head looking towards the floor. Camus couldn’t see here eyes, but he knew he had upset he
“Because…if…if you think this way…your soul is going to go to hell.†She mumbled.
“She is so brainwashed.†Camus thought to himself, “I should probably expect this dating a ministers daughter and all.â€
Camus then smiled, “I’m sorry Sara. I didn’t mean to upset you. I’m just you know…Looking for myself. Yeah, I’m looking for myself.â€
She looked into Camus’s eyes. They were a little red. “ Ah, I see is that it? I’ll pray to Mary that you find yourself soon!†And she ran off.
“She’s a nice girl but…†Camus rambled off as he looked out a window. “…How could anyone love a Goddess that condemned her creations to his barren wasteland of snow?â€
Outside it was just that. Snowplows went around twenty-four seven in the city. If you went outside you had to dress extremely warm. Plants and animals were grown and raised in giant green houses. Not a sunny day came to the world Gravius in many years.
Well, here I am still sick as hell. Oh, but I don’t have a fever and I’m not throwing up so that means I can’t be taken seriously as being sick. Gosh, that fucking sucks. I’m going to go in tomorrow, but only to take Alati’s test. Then if I still don’t feel well I’m going to do what I fucking can to get out of there.
Screw the nurse if she says I don’t have a fever and doesn’t mean I’m not sick.
I hate being sick.
—-
Just disregard everything I said yesterday. I wasn’t myself.
-Ja
You know how when your down, and then something comes out of the blue that just seems to make it better. Yeah, I had one of those. I’m feeling better now.
Thanks.
Note to self for tomorrow’s entry.
Talk about college and how growing up sucks.
Talk about ideals, dreams, etc.
Through in stuff about love.
Rant about how people should comment more.
I’m tired good night.
-Ja
In memory of my old journel that actually turned two 3 days ago. I’ll post the song that is the first entry I made. Well, not really, but it’s a long story that I’ve nearly forgotten.
STRENGTH
Strength
Ending Song to X Episode 0
By Koizumi Kouhei
In a world of sad dreams
Without any loved ones
Unable even to end my own life
What should I do?
By loving, I lost everything
But still, I searched
The beauty of protecting someone
That was only an illusion
Without being able to protect even
Your strength and kindness, there is only pain
If everyone was born
Unable to defy their destiny
Please, tell me the meaning of tears
I can’t even fulfill
The promises I made that day
But, I thought, somehow
I am just a little happy
No matter how hard the past was
Or if you have been lost
I can see a small light
I’m sure it’s not an illusion
If it is your strength and kindness
I just might be able to protect my true feelings
People’s hearts are changing things
I want to try to believe that so I can live until tomorrow
Please don’t cry anymore, because I’m here
Even though I’m anxious about the future
Even if our hearts are lost
Because people’s hearts can change
I won’t lose the people I love anymore
If it is your strength and kindness…
Because people’s hearts can change
Live without being lost anymore
Now, don’t cry anymore and start walking
Eternal Snow – Searching for Full Moon
I’m falling in love with you, and which will come to pass?
Will the feeling do nothing but swell, or
Will you notice it
Even though I’ve never said anything?
Like snow, but quietly
It continues to pile up
Hold me tight if I think like this
I didn’t want to know
What it was like to fall in love with someone
I love you; my tears won’t stop
Therefore, I should be free of you
How long will I keep thinking of you?
My sigh makes the window glass fog up
Now, a burning candle
Can’t melt my shaking heart anymore?
Hold me tight, strong enough to break me
If we meet in a biting cold blizzard
I won’t feel cold, and
I miss you everytime I think of you
This scarf that I knit for you
I’m holding it alone tonight
If there were an eternally falling snow
This feeling I have for you, could I hide it?
Hold me tight if I think like this
I didn’t want to know
What it was like to fall in love with someone
I love you; my chest fills up
I want to cry out to the winter sky
I want to see you now
School was the same old yesterday. Ms.Alati is just starting to get on my bitch radar now. She is such a bitch! Her and her stupid project. Her economics test totally rapped me on Thurdays.
Had a test in Ms. Galie’s class. I totally owned that Theology test. I told her that I was going on that trip to the Saint Charles Seminary in Phili. It’ll be interesting to actually see a seminary and ask questions about it.
Great news! I asked Mr. Penny if I could hang around his class on the days I get out and he’s like, “Anytime.” I didn’t want to get him in trouble or anything and he’s like, “Why? This is my house.” It’s so cool! I’ll be able to listen to him teach twice out of the week. A double dose of Theology. Yay!
I really get disappointed that no one but a few (like 3-4 people) only go to the communion service in school. I mean, it’s not like we totally miss out on lunch or anything. Yes, the physical aspect of the body is important, but what is equally important too is the spritually aspect as well.
I’ve been working on my Christmas gift comic for everyone. I like how it’s turning out and I hope you all enjoy it when it hopefully gets done soon.
I had to go over to Lauer’s after school with Costa because we all had to work on the crappy Econ project that’s due on Monday. It didn’t even take that long too. Zack came over as well. It was a fun time. Fighting each other, cards, some other stuff. Good times.
I can get more RAM. Yay! Gah, I don’t know if that was a gray hair. I can’t find it anymore.
That’s all I think for now. I’m totally tired.
-Ja na
