Now, I remember why I stopped going on AIM.

-___-;; Debates bug the hell out of me because I either know alot about a certain topic or not enough or I’m too tired or just don’t really have the time or desire at the given moment to type real long things about the given topic (if I know alot about it).

-Ja

Well, I’m all packed and ready to go down to St. Charles. I’m not sure what to expect while I’m there, but I’m going down with an open heart. I’m ready to spend some time away from all the distractions of my room and everything to spend time with God, and actually taking the time to read the Bible and other stuff.

Since I’ll be gone that means no entry for tomorrow. So enjoy the free time you have from coming here to fly a kite, read a book or something else that is productive.

Now, I’m going to be in a rush to take in as many distractions as I can now while I’m here. I don’t doubt my brother will go on my computer to see what I have on it. If he doesn’t I’ll be surprised. Too bad for him I have nothing worth reading or seeing. I have one tidbit of information that I want to write.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, on your own intelligence rely not; In all your ways be mindful of him, and he will make straight your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

-Ja

I woke up around 10 which is a surprise because I went to bed late. I got up and took a shower and all that crap.

Erik sent me a techno/trance esque song he wrote. Cool stuff. He has a knack for writing techno too.

Erik picked me up and I went over to his place where we played Risk with Kyle and Johnny too. We then went over to Nerv and played for an hour. Fun stuff.

Sheeeeet!

-Ja na

Alot is going to be going on in the next few weeks. Wow.

This instant cold is annoying.

Got the Ys game on the PS2.

Stuff happened today.

I’m tired.

Why am I talking only in small sentences?

Oh, yeah IE closed when I was typing up a long entry. Uguu~!

-Ja

Didn’t do much today. I woke up early for once. My sleep level must be at 0 if I’m waking up early now.

Right now, my brother has some people who just came over unexpected. I hate it when unexpected people who come over. It’s rude. So, I listen to my mp3 player to atleast try and block them out. It works. Man, and I just found out one of the guys here was like 19-20 and he had his son over. Man, what the heck? I was wondering why we had a little kid over but I didn’t know it would be someone’s kid. What the heck!? And my brother calls this guy his “sensei”. Uh, a person in that kind of position I would hardly call a role model…

Deep down I feel people like that are trash. I know it’s not right to think that way, but why would you destory your life like that? Why is my brother associating with people like that? I’m not going to suger coat my feelings. I do feel like I am better then some people some times (and it’s usually the people I don’t know. Hmm…). It’s not right. I know it isn’t. I don’t like my brother and the people he is around, and I don’t want to be around him. I can’t wait to get out of his life and mine. My brother is a lowlife who does nothing but work out for no reason. He thinks he can just go to Japan and do shit. My brother is a worse dreamer then I am. His logic sucks.

I hope some day I get the chance to laugh at his crummy life. He is going to amount to if he continues to continue what he’s doing right now.

Ok, I went too far here, but still he bothers me, and I worry about him .

I was downstairs and my dad took weird pictures of himself, our house, the hamster and a bunch of other stuff. I really get suspecious about stuff like this. I have no idea what the hell the guy does online. He’s just as bad as my brother. Then there was that time my brother and I found some lubercate…er yeah… >_>

Well, I gotta get to studying. Four days and I totally forgot everything in my classes.