Holy shit Japanese people need to be more open minded about their country. Our Japanese room mate just went ballistic on us for pointing out the shit about Japan. America isn’t perfect either so get over it Japan. Your country isn’t perfect either.

I think getting married at such a young age is dumb but what do I know? I think relationships in general are stupid and females should just be used as pleasure objects.

Feelings are stupid. I find it amusing that it really isn’t only until after I was rejected do I really see the faults in the people I had feelings for. It makes me wonder what I even saw in them to begin with. Feelings suck, and really blur one’s vision of reality.

I will forever only love 2D girls until I can successfully determine my feelings for another person.

Not to mention this whole year has been like reliving high school and yet in one way or another for the better.

Finally taking it easy again. Never have I had a semester where the shit hits the fan like this.

Gah, I put on 5 kilos recently putting me to 175 pounds. It’s not like this doesn’t bother me either because it does. It has been bothering me for some time that I just don’t seem to take the time to exercise because I did a lot more of it all last year, and I at least did it more often last semester. This semester has just been a more stressful and drink heavy semester. IJ500 sucks. Well, most of the parties are over with I would say for the most part so this gives me time to cut back from alcohol, I hope. Need to watch what I eat too, but I don’t think I eat a whole look of sugar stuff though so this is primarily from alcohol, I think.

I have no idea how people cannot exercise. It makes my body feel so weak and flabby.

Happy Birthday to me

Turned 22 today. Eh, I really don’t know what to say about this. Birthdays just seem to lose their meaning when you start to reach a certain age. I am going out this Friday with a bunch of people from the dorm to celebrate my birthday so that should be fun though. I made a reservation at this Yakiniku place which has all you can eat and drink. It was the same place we had Nick’s, my roomate last semester, birthday.

School has been shitty but that really isn’t anything new though. Going back home in just a few weeks. Really looking forward to it.

Well, IJ500 just made it apparent to me that I can’t write a 3 page report in a Japanese.

I think I am going to try something different with my anime blog.

I’m working on my listening comprehension by watching Aria. I cannot find them raw so I’m using Spanish subs since I really don’t remember it well. I’m not really surprised how much I picked up. The easiest points were the Akari and Aika conversation on the phone as well as when they first meet in front of the gondola. The hardest points are the Akatsuki and Akari conversation on the phone and Akari talking about when she first arrived on Aqua.

Akari seems to use the word 半人前 a lot. I thought it meant apprentice/novice but in the dictionaries I’ve checked it doesn’t have any meaning like that. It actually means half a person.

I’m conceited, basically.

Oh, I can’t sleep so you know what that means. Some long entry about stuff that has been on my mind.

Lately, I have just given up on the anime blogsphere. Well, not really lately more like ever since I got to Japan in August. Either just because I don’t have time or have slipped into just not really caring much for what anyone has to say really. I was never really someone that searches for news or really has an interest for news even if it is things regarding what I like. The vast majority of people seem to write rather boring things about anime or rather maybe they aren’t but I just lack the interest. I never really ever got pumped over waiting for someone to write up a new entry. Anyway or maybe I have ADD and just can’t sit through the walls of text on something should someone really be writing this much about an anime character kind of topics.

I guess it says a lot about my personality which isn’t really much to begin with. I mean, I like people because they’re entertaining, and they have something I feel I can get out of it. I’m not one to go searching for things since I feel they should come to me. No man is an island they say, but I feel I am an island all to myself. I write strictly for myself because I like hearing myself think. I feel that what I have to write is relevant and nothing I have ever written, I believe, was ever stupid because I took the time to write it. Maybe other bloggers feel the same way about their own writing. I don’t know. I suppose one reason or another that I’m not posting this kind of entry on my anime blog is just because I don’t want it to get noticed. I don’t want it to be a sign that maybe I’m looking for more readers, comments, or hits. It’s nothing like that.

Another thing about myself is I really don’t hold onto knowledge that I don’t find very useful so just reading about what other people think about an anime episode, or news that might seemly be relevant to my interests in the short run isn’t really worth taking the time to read in the long run.

Lastly, I’m horrible at keeping in touch with anyone. I’m here one minute and you might not ever really hear from me again. I guess I just don’t get very attached to anyone anymore. My family, well, at least my mom’s side, is angry at me for not keeping in touch at every waking moment of my day. I guess I could give an e-mail saying how I’m doing or even a simple hello, but even that just seems kind of out of character for me and just plain tedious. Maybe I haven’t really learned the meaning of family or friends here. I appreciate the people I hang around but things don’t last forever. It’s better to just hold on to things in the now, and on a day to day basis since you never really know what is going to come when the shit hits the fan. So, to just drop in on an anime blog is just something I would do every blue moon I feel.

Then why even make something that’s public to begin with? Why even bother writing what I think? Because then no one can read it. If you’re going to write something you might as well make it public since others are bound to feel and understand the same kinds of feelings since we’re all human. I feel like I have something relevant to say even if it is just to myself. My first anime blog was a personal blog, and it was public but more or less unknown because Xanga lol sucks at generating a community. At least the 4 or 5 years that I was on it. That, I suppose, is where these general feelings of passivity towards others in my niche comes from. Who knows.

My second year blogging about anime on wordpress, I feel, was the most growing year for me since I actually was writing more with an audience in mind, but I was still copying a reviewer like style which to me just feels horribly boring to read now. I like where I am going and how I am developing into a style that is more relaxed and something my own.

It’s odd because I like having people come by to the things that I write but I really don’t have much of an interest in what they have to write. I want to say that I don’t understand why anyone would really have any interest in what I write but myself, but that would be a lie. I guess I just never give others the chance they deserve on the Internet and in real life.

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In other news, I think I am just getting sick. I can’t seem to sleep well, my stomach growls periodically in a sick kind of way, and ugh, I dunno. I hope it isn’t too serious. I need to get back to America. I’m looking to get away from this country. At least for a little while.