We have a tough job. I want things to get better and I’ve taking into account their constructive criticisms. But since this is Japan their words go through a middle man so I can’t really ask any questions like, “How do you want me to change this?” or “Why do you feel this way?” This is just my first year doing this and I know they understand. They know I’m trying and I know they want the students to learn English just as much as I do.

Maybe it’s just the one teacher trying to impart so kind of final knowledge onto me? I have no idea. I’m trying to take in what they’ve said. I think today went alright. Somewhere a long the way I feel like I’ve just become very conscious of how different I am. It’s what happened when I studied abroad in Japan as well. I felt really good about myself, but then I started to get down on myself. I started to feel inferior because I was a foreigner and one that really liked anime at that. But I am who I am. I shouldn’t let differences as race or cultural background get in the way. It is who I am.

I am still growing up everyday.